And CUTTTTT!

Tying in with my last post, sometimes I wake up and I think I am the main character in a movie. The only difference is that I don't get to do retakes. Once I fuck up a scene, that's it, I'm stuck with it as the first and final scene. The other big problem is that none of the scenes that I don't like could ever end up on the editing floor. They all make it into the show.

Now don't get me wrong, there are plenty of good scenes. But there's another problem with that. I am not the director of my own show, I don't know who is, but whoever it is, he/she is not letting me pause in those fabulous scenes. More importantly sometimes I want to re-take those scenes to re-do them the same exact way. There is one scene that up to this point in my life is by far the best, and I do relive it over and over it in my head. Sadly, it's a total cliché: boy and girl, holding hands, walking around Paris on a perfect summer night, then holding each other with the nicely lit Eiffel Tower in the background. I don't know what I did to be able to get that into my movie, but as much as I thought before that it's such a typical sickening AWWWWW moment, I have to admit, it was wonderful. For some reason I am thinking more and more about it lately, mainly because in about a week or so, it will be exactly two years since that happened.

****SIGH****

Well, the crew needs a break. Back in 15!